They’re All Going to Laugh at You!
It feels hella strange writing this article after being gone for so long. In fact, the last article that I wrote on this platform was published on July 4, 2022. If you are one of my followers, I am so sorry about my absence.
However, I really REALLY appreciate that I still gained followers that left amazing comments on my work. However, I want to explain where I have been.
As a writer, losing confidence can be a difficult and painful experience. For me, it was triggered by a lack of support from a close friend. Yeah, I know it’s cliché, but my confidence, or lack thereof, is the reason that I haven’t been writing.
I was making $4,000 a month in revenue from my writing and felt on top of the world, but my world came crashing down when I found out through a close friend’s text messages that they did not believe in me and were not proud of my work and income. (Insert expletives here, because that’s exactly how I wanted to react.) I was ANGRY!!!
This revelation not only damaged my self-esteem but also resulted in a decline in my revenue as my motivation and productivity tanked. I went from having the best month I have EVER had in my professional writing life, to questioning my own abilities.
What talent could I possibly possess if even those close to me don’t believe in me? Feeling unsupported by a close friend led to imposter syndrome. I began to doubt my talent and the value of my work.
Without the encouragement and support of this person, I felt as though I wasn’t good enough and considered giving up on my writing altogether. To be fair, this was NOT their fault. No one can force you to stop working.
I feel crazy for even writing this. Motivation is an inside job. How could the words of one person make me feel this low? Even though I know that, I was still — stuck… I would get to my laptop, and then — nothing.
The lack of support from this person also led to feelings of isolation and loneliness. I felt like…